I never knew it would end like this

“Valerie guys are going to take you away when we get into highschool, we’re not gunna be together” I think I heared that a million times, as well as I denied it. All this time it’s been you worried to “loose” me but I was the one that should be worried. You used me. How could you do it? How were you able to lie to my face every god dam day and say I love you knowing you were two timing me. My dad used to tell me how you were such a good kid but still be careful cause all guys are the same. And I used to brush it off like it was nothing. I didn’t listen. I thought you were the one. After 2 years of being with you every day, talking on the phone Every night, going everywhere together, it’s all gone. I have to look at all your sweatshirts on the ground in my room, the first rose you ever gave me that I saved, out pictures everywhere, the blanket you made me, and the builder bear you made me. And my favorite the letters you wrote me. I read them over and over again. I’ve listened to the voicemails in the past of you on my phone over and over again. I watch videos of us on my iPod. I look at our pictures a million times. I have our song on replay, and remembering when you sang it for me on karaoke. Knowing your happy and like someone else. Someone that when I heared my heart dropped. I couldn’t even talk. I can’t sleep I haven’t eaten at all. I don’t know how you do it. How can you tell someone you love them, have that person gave you there all, do absolutely everything for and just leave them like that so selfishly. I’m not saying I was te perfect girl friend and that I’m perfect cause I’m not, at all. I give you 10000 percent props for dealing with me for 2 years. I’m never gunna wake up to cute messages saying good morning beautiful and what not. It’s all gone. Your sister texts me everyday. Yesterday wicked upset telling me she wants to see me and misses me already. It breaks my heart. I never wanted to loose you like this.I don’t get how I can go into school and see you without crying. I dot know how I am going to deal with it. I will always love you no matter what happens and like you and I always said you will always , always be my baby. And that’s why im not changing our contact ever. I’ll never forgett all of our memories. I won’t, and I promise. Your on my mind 24/7 and know that please. Know that I’ll never be happy and I cry every day and have missing you. I don’t know how you did what you did behind my back and just played it off. I’ll always love you to the moon and back a million times.

(via october11thh)